As I sit here in my cell meditating and praying, I realize what today is today is my brother Adam's anniversary of his death... then all the emotions begin to come back.. remembering when the chaplains office called for me and anyone who knows the system knows when the chaplain calls for you its not good news.. as my heart starts to beat faster and faster and my mind starts to go a million miles a minute as I remember that sad, oh so sad day that I lost my little brother! It was Saturday, September 17th. The chaplain calls me in and says I have to share some news with you, your mom and your aunt are on their way to see you and let know that your brother (Adam) has passed away.. he was in a car accident.. my heart sank... I could not believe it, this cant be possible I must be dreaming.. OH GOD please let me wake up from this nightmare!!
Then reality sinks in when I see my mom and tia chana walk in my heart sinks, deeper it kinda felt like I wasn't in my body anymore I was just above them and me looking over at what was about to happen.. my heart begins to break as I hold my mom and tia so very tight.. and the tears begin to roll uncontrollably.. but in my mind I tell my self I gotta be strong, I gotta be strong for my family.. as I gather myself and begin to talk to them I can see that my mom herself is still in shock and my tia chana is pretty much having to take over in explaining what happened and she will have to be the one to be responsible for getting everything together.. my mom is like a zombie.. the pain in my heart tears at the core. As we visit for several hours all the memories, all the times we fought,laughed,talked seeing you dance, and sing and be YOU came roaring through my mind like a river.. but I am comforted to know know lil bro that we will see each other again someday! Revelations 21:4 He will wipe away every tear from their eyes, and death shall be no more, neither shall there be mourning, nor crying, nor pain anymore, for the former things have passed away.” I love you Adam
